Surprise, surprise...I'm 6 weeks pregnant. What a shock that was to discover, let me tell you. I'm fully aware of how babies are made, but for some (stupid?) reason, I just never believed that would happen to me..NOW.
I have to say that I am GLAD. Ecstatic, actually...along with nervous and shitting my pants scared. I went to the doctors for a completely different reason-- I was having kidney pain, so I thought I had a kidney infection, or kidney stones..or something of the sort. Told the doc my symptoms, and she said, "yep, that sounds like stones," (which I've had in the past) and sent me down to radiology for a scan. The radiology tech asked the mandatory, "Are you, or is it possible that you are pregnant?" and even though I did not think that I was, I thought the responsible answer would be, "yea, I guess being pregnant is a possibility...". She then asked when the first day of my last period was, which was November 14th. She looked sort of shocked and said "Well, today is December 14th, so you should have started by now!", to which my response, was to bust out my iPhone, go to my Period Tracker App and show her, "No! This tells me I'm due in 2 days! my cycles are usually every 32 days, more or less." She told me she did not feel comfortable giving me a scan until it was for sure that I was not pregnant, and while I thought, what a pain in the ass this is, I was ultimately thinking, what a good tech, me and my potentially unborn baby thank you!. She sends me off for a blood test, then back to radiology to wait, and then the nurse tells me, " Oh, well, I guess you're results are posted, but they wont give them to us, your doctor wants you to come back up so she can discuss with you." And again, I'm thinking...what a pain in the ass this is, all this for them to tell me that I'm not pregnant, and then to send me back down to wait in radiology for the scan. So I go back upstairs and see my doctor. And BOOM. I'm PREGNANT. Just like that.
At least I don't have kidney stones. ;)
I feel like this wittle babe I'm growing is a gift. I found out that I was pregnant, exactly ONE week after my Grandfather passed away, and one day after he was buried. So I cant help feel the bittersweet feeling of, we just lost one family member, but now we get to welcome another. I sort of feel like my grandma, (grandpas wife, who passed in 2008) had something to do with the timing.
I go to visit the doctor for the first time on January 9th, at 330 pm. Scheduled it for later in the day, so Baby Daddy wouldn't have to miss work to join me. Now I'm kind of kicking myself in the ass that I didn't take the morning appointment because I am already feeling SO impatient and just want that day to be here already! I cant wait to get my little picture of the little jelly bean!
I've been feeling so nauseous already. Haven't barfed (lovee that word :) ) yet, so that's good. But it really sucks feeling sick all day. I changed from taking my prenatal vitamins in the morning, to taking them at night, to help with the nausea and it seems to be helping a little bit. I've been shoveling food down my throat like the big heffer that I am, already. One thing that I'm a little bitter about is that a week or so before I found out I was pregnant, I had made a vow to myself that I was going to get my health going in the right direction. More salads, less burgers. More walking, less sitting on my ass. Eventually quit smoking. I've never had any desire to be SKINNY, but just healthy. I guess being pregnant will sort of help me towards the things that I want, since now I've quit smoking (which was not as hard as I thought it would be, perhaps because I just love my babe enough already :) ) I have eaten a lot more salads since I've found out, but the sitting on my ass thing is just one thing that cant be beat right now. I've been so exhausted! I swear, all I want to do is eat, and sleep. I am so frustrated though, because I am so tired, but I, for some reason, can not sleep through the night!! I guess that would be okay if i didn't have to get up and go to work...but I do, so it sucks! Everything I've read says this all gets better after the first trimester, so I've got six more weeks of this restlessness to go. Best believe that I am seriously counting down.
A lot of things I've read say to keep a journal. So I guess I'll keep a blog. I'll update when I can..maybe weekly, or bi-weekly, or if something interesting happens. Feel free to leave comments, words of encouragement, advice, whateva--but lets keep it positive, cause negativity is a bitch. ;)
xo
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